Please Accept my Apologies

Anything that I can do to fix my wrongness, I will do.  I open the door widely for discussion or wreaking anger to me.  For I’ve burned a lot of bridges in my life, if I made mistakes and you happen to come here coincidentally.

*so, i’m opening new chapter, hopefully new seasons ahead will be so much better than before  😀 *

A Side of The September Issue

Write. Write to learn how to write, and write to understand. Write to remember, to preserve the scrap of a voice in a particular age.

Inspired by Joulee, I start to write again in 2014 😀

Couple years ago, I watched The September Issue, the story behind Vogue’s largest and heaviest number of all times in September 2007’s edition.

I love the quote of the movie, if fashion is religion, Vogue is the bible. Then why September? Because September is January in fashion industry. Well, I was not really into fashion, so I watched this just to know the figure of legendary Anna Wintour (the chief editor) who was also inspiration of the “devil” in Devil Wears Prada. While my questions about Wintour were addressed, the figure of Grace Coddington obtained my attention. Long before I watched this movie, I’d already known her brilliant works from magazines.

After watching this film, I wanna share the things that we can learn from her:

  1. Be out of the box
    As I said before, her works are awe-inspiring! Even her coworkers said that Grace can always direct the photographers and models to conceive romantic and beautiful pics, not only to showcase the apparels. Besides, she can keep the projects on the track even when working in limited budget. The power of utilizing resources leads into impressive works.
  2. Be bold
    Her boss is Wintour, known as the ice woman. Tough they’ve been working together like for decades, they have different personalities and opinions that sometimes bring disagreements between they two. Grace knows how to handle their often-tense relationship and when to stand up for her works and voices and realizes when to yield if others’ opinions are also okay to execute.
  3. Be resilient
    She started her career as model. Then she got car accident that left seams in her face and in trauma for 2 years. After vacuuming, she was back in fashion industry as fashion editor.
    And there are times, many times, we feel down in office and everything seems wrong. There will always be things that are out of our control and it’s okay to feel bored or upset. But the more important thing is to be resilient and back to work, feel more energized.
  4. Focus and be passionate
    After recovering from her accident, years after years she has been igniting the sparks of passion in her work and career. She focuses in fashion thus be one of remarkable person in this industry.grace-coddington-work-
  5. Be adaptive
    Well, she’s 70 but still can keep up with the latest trend and compete with younger people.
    It means we need to have broad mind and always be open to learn something new. The culture to contend with the trend brings Vogue to be the most powerful and best-respected fashion magazine in the world for years.
  6. Care about the people
    There’s this one scene in photo-call when some cakes were prepared for the team but the model didn’t wanna eat one because she was too scared to be fat. And Grace asked her to eat the cake anyway as she concerned about the model she worked with. She thinks that models don’t need to be so skinny. We need to see the models as ‘humanbeing’, not just posed mannequin.

“Always keep your eyes open. Never go to sleep in the car or anything like that. Keep watching, because whatever you see out the window or where ever – it can inspire you.”
– Grace Coddington

Spirited Away

Year: 2001
Director: Hayao Miyazaki
IMDB Rating: 8.6/10


Chihiro Ogino (10) and her parents are moving to suburbs but in the middle of the trip, they get lost to unique old building with a very long and dark tunnel as they can see through the entrance door. As her parents are so curious, they enter the building and down the way, there are meadow and such kind of abandoned amusement park. While looking around, her parents find an empty restaurant with so many food and start eating the food. Chihiro refuses to join her parents, instead she explores the place. She comes to an enormous bathhouse and meets a boy named Haku (a lost soul with great magic) who is surprised with her existence in that place and asks her to return before sunset. But it’s too late. Strange things start to happen. She finds her parents have turned into pigs and she is trapped alone as human in spirit world.

The adventure begins. Helped by Haku, Chihiro is told to find a job as the way to survive in that world, transform her parents back to human and get out of there. So she asks for a job from bathhouse boiler-man named Kamaji. But Kamaji can’t give her one, so he suggests Chihiro to ask Yubaba, the witch who owns and manage the bathhouse. Finally Chihiro gets the job and has her name changed into Sen. Haku advises her to keep remembering her name because Yubaba controls people by taking their names and that if she forgets hers like he has forgotten his, she will not be able to leave the spirit world.

While working in bathhouse, Chihiro experiences many surprising occurrences, such as meeting masked creature named No-Face who is then obsessed with her, cleaning a stink spirit who’s actually a polluted river spirit, finding out that Yubaba has twin sister, helping Haku who is hurt when doing his job, and not forgetting her mission to help her parents and find way back to home.

For me, the movie is so imaginative and fascinating. Chihiro, presented as spoiled whinny brat in the beginning. She clings to her mother’s arm often and is afraid of many things. She is careless, naive, characters that a young girl commonly has. But her hard work to be braver, to be independent, and save her parents are absolutely good lessons of this movie. There are so many beautiful images and scenes. The depictions of each character, each place, each view and colors are so great! 🙂

I think this is the power of Miyazaki’s movies. You watch one movie of him, then you’ll want to watch his other movies, hoping them will be as great. I’ll catch up later with other movies.

September 2011 – December 2012

This past one year is the year of learning about life for me, tinged by the lessons of life and death, hate and love.. They are all manifest.

There are things we don’t want to happen but have to accept..
Included the loss of everything that we ever had, that taught us not to be over-attached to worldly things that can easily come and go. Sometimes if not the loss, life gives us hard slap in the face unexpectedly but again, we have to accept. This hard slap does not always come in form of severe problem, but it can be the fear produced by the consequences of our action. Whether the dread comes or does not come into reality, it has already given the scar of the trembling and startles that we are pushed to take any actions to elude ourselves from the same mistake. In other way, God has repealed our fear and He has given us one more chance to reform to be better than before. His grace is our driving force. And in the end, the only greatest fear that’s allowed is the fear of God and the slap is a sweet sweet admonition. I’m in the process of fixing past mistakes and oh yes, I long to the moment we are finally free from these gripping shackles.

Things we don’t want to know but have to learn..
That our life can be suck if we’re surrounded by wrong people. There is time that we meet these villains in our story. Those people broke our heart so bad because as simple as we had tried to live righteously they came unexpectedly and screwed everything. However in some ways, the scratch those people left admonishes us to make a choice for moving on: to retaliate or to forgive. Revenge, as we know it, is an evil cycle. It never ends, it’s fatiguing, and it nurtures the devil in our soul. But forgiving is no easy for the first option, as human-being, it is our tendency to be such overbearing and difficult to forgive. But walking around angry was tiring until we decided not to hold that anger.

I can not say that I have forgiven wholeheartedly now, I just keep forgiving and learning how to react against those people. Anyway, as someone who truly believe existence of God, I once learned about compassion, that merely this choice will lead us to happier life.

And people we can’t live without but have to let go..
It twinged to see the one you loved in pain, it was even more excruciating to see him died while you were holding his hand and all you wanted was a miracle or else stayed a little bit longer with him. One year passed, we understand that death is the absolute thing we all must undergo though we often subconsciously deny that it will happen to ourselves/family some day. With this loss, we become much stronger and wiser. We eventually realize that the chasm of life and death is just a blink of eyes and to cherish moments in our life. My dad taught us one last lesson.. that everything did have its own time, to struggle didn’t mean to resist, to surrender didn’t mean to give up, to die didn’t mean to end the journey..

And sometimes we failed in some things that we had planned but like one said, there is time that we have to thank God we weren’t on our schedule, because even though we dragged our heels and checked our planner every five seconds while we watched our life change in His hands, we just have to hope eventually we’ll like the place we’ve ended up, and the things we’ve seen along the way.

Just when we think we’ve figured things out, the universe throws us a curve ball. So we have to improvise, we find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way, sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong. (Meredith Grey)

Godspeed! and Happy new year.

Old Fine Days

I just suddenly miss those times.
sitting all day in lab doing final project or any tasks
with the view right to green trees near the Campus Center
accompanied by such kind friends..

Didn’t matter how the day went, or how the project progressed,
there were always peaceful afternoons.

Those times were few last months in the end of the year and
the only rainy days I liked..
Just stared outside my window and saw students walked under their umbrellas
with Ljósið from Ólafur Arnalds played softly

Rainy days were just as good as sunny days that time in that place, those times..

And I stick this Irish blessing in my desk in Lab:

May we always have work for our hands to do.
May our pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on our windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near us.
And may God fill our heart with gladness to cheer us 🙂