Sedikit tentang Berdoa

Before prayer, endeavor to realize whose Presence you are approaching, and to whom you are about to speak. We can never fully understand how we ought to behave towards God, before whom the angles tremble.
- St. Teresa of Avila

Tadi sempat baca-baca artikel di beberapa site dan nemu artikel tentang “berdoa”. Saya tau bukan bidang saya dalam berceramah soal agama. Tapi artikel ini cukup menohok dan ingin share sedikit di sini

Ada orang yang berdoa kepada Tuhan saat ada maunya saja. Ketika kehidupan terasa menyenangkan dan lancar, tidak ada ucapan syukur dibalut melalui doa yang dipanjatkan pada Tuhan. Sebaliknya, ketika masalah datang, kita meminta-minta pada Tuhan dan tiba-tiba rajin berdoa. Dan sering dalam berdoa kita mendikte Tuhan dengan memohon serinci-rincinya karna takut Tuhan tidak mengabulkan doa sesuai skenario yang kita inginkan.

Padahal Tuhan Maha Mengetahui..

Dan emang ga ada salahnya meminta di dalam doa, tapi mendikte Tuhan itu yang salah. Somehow, Dia pasti ngasih apa yang kita butuhkan di waktu yang tepat dan ketika kesulitanpun Dia pasti menyertai kita.

Artikel ini mau ga mau membuat saya mengevaluasi diri sendiri, bagaimana kebiasaan saya berdoa, apa yang saya ucapkan ketika berdoa (apa ada pujian syukur selain meminta), di mana hati dan pikiran ketika berdoa, apa saya berdoa dengan khusuk atau terburu-buru, dsb.

Yang bikin nyesek adalah setelah evaluasi rasanya cara berdoa dan berharap saya ini emang masih salah-salah >,<
Bahkan, kadang masih sering lalai ke gereja tiap minggu walaupun pasti berdoa setiap hari. Udah ke gerejapun sering berharap misa cepat-cepat selesai, padahal cuma 1.5 jam dalam seminggu. Ga sopan banget ya?

Harus belajar banyak. Buhuhu.. Semoga bisa makin baik deh ke depannya.

Whatever, wherever

So, here I am in this phase of life which I was supposed to pass few months ago.

Flashback to the time after I graduated, I really wanted to apply for a job so I could be financially independent from my parents whilst looking for scholarship for master degree abroad. That was my ideal plan. So ideal that I never imagined things could change in a blink of an eye.

Despite of losses and sadness, life must goes on

I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but I’ll try face it with more smiles, confidence, and faith. I believe that what is to come will be better.

Whatever the company that I’ll join one day, I’ll learn a lot, contribute a lot, be grateful a lot.. Wherever we’ll go, Dad will watch over us from above.. However now, family and beloved boyfriend are priceless treasures

Random Words at Night

#1

I think I have to read some papers and articles before I can find perfect words to describe my goal. I want this path the most. It’s funny that I hardly arrange even one sentence why I want it so bad; think it’s kind of weird how I lose words for this thing. This path is kind of mainstream but it’s not me if plans and goals aren’t set for long term. Though experiences show me that we need to have back up plans in everything we do and let God in.

But for those who know me, they can really see I actually just put “this dream” (I promise to tell it later) in my head. Whatever paths brought to me, I know that I drive to one destination.

#2

You know what’s the important of best education and learning? You have ample “grounding” to support your dreams. You know the challenges and problems are merely temporary storms

#3

But somehow, your education doesn’t simply make you smarter. In many cases, experiences make it. I’m educated but I’m lack of experiences in what I do. People with experiences can beat me (better not to argue with them). But education makes you think and learn faster. Good education, somehow, directs people to be more open-minded instead of putting blinders on their eyes that they just know things that they’ve learned. Education + experiences = wisdom.

#4

In the end, it’s not how high you build your dreams that makes a difference, but how high your faith can climb.

This too Shall Pass

I would never try to tell you that every bad thing is really a good thing, just waiting to be gazed at with pretty new eyes, just waiting to be shined up and –ta da!- discovered as fantastic. But what I know is that for me, and for a lot of people I love, we’re discovering that lots of times, not every time, maybe, but more often than not, there is something just past the heartbreak, just past the curse, just past the despair, and that thing is beautiful. You don’t want it to be beautiful, at first. You want to stay in the pain and the blackness because it feels familiar, and because you’re not done feeling victimized and smashed up. But one day you’ll wake up surprised and humbled, staring at something you thought for sure was a curse and has revealed itself to be a blessing-a beautiful, delicate blessing.
- Shauna Niequist

Novel dan Imajinasi

Saya suka membaca novel atau fiksi karena sejak membaca kalimat pertama, saya berasa masuk ke dunia baru, dan kalau ceritanya cukup bagus atau bagus dan saya tetap melanjutkan membaca, saya benar-benar masuk ke petualangan baru, masuk ke dalam setiap setting waktu dan tempatnya, mengimajinasikan setiap detil yang diberikan lalu menggerakan setiap imajinasi, larut dengan cerita dan sudut pandang tokoh yang diciptakan penulis hingga kata terakhir di cerita itu selesai dibaca.

Beberapa hari ini saya mengikuti Igor, seorang pria Rusia yang menghancurkan dunia untuk mendapatkan kembali Ewa, cintanya. Dan saya juga berkenalan dengan Gabriela – seorang aktris yang sedang merintis karir, Jasmine – model pengungsi di Eropa dari negara ketiga, Javits – distributor film kaya raya, Maureen – sutradara ambisius, dan lain-lain. Lengkaplah. Hari ini, berasa pulang dari Cannes

Reading: The Winner Stands Alone, Paulo Coelho